Family and friends

When you think of family you think of blood relatives or married in. Well in our family we also think of our friends as family. Some families are ideal and some families are just crazy. i dont know what happend to my family..So lets start my family
I have a mom who i love dearly. we have our issues but we are always there for eachother.
I have a step father who has been there when i need him. he bought me my first car. well several of my cars ok. lol. We dont really talk much because the relationship is just strange. he came from a quiet closed off family.
I have a real brother who has been in and out of jail and has a very bad personality.
I have 2 step brothers who are completely different from eachother but still great guys
I have a step sister who i barley know. But only because her and her dad dont get along and she hates my mom so shes never around.
I have a Grandma and a Great grandma on my moms side who are just two wonderful people
My Father and Step mother really arent in the picture. I have tried to make myself be someone im not just to get their approval. and i have finally learned that if i have to do that its not worth it. I used to tell ppl i had 2 moms because i counter her as a mother. when people ask her how many kids she has she tells them one. Thats just not very fair to someone who thought of her as a mom and tells her they lover her all the time. Sorry go ahead and have your one kid because i think your going to lose your step son sometime soon as well. then you will only be left with one. and guess what?! you drove your husbands 2 kids away and made him lose them. You had some help from him as well but for some reason step parents get blamed the most especially after already tearing apart the same family once already.
My dogs. We have 2 dogs that are considered family as well.Not just pets
My husbands side:
He has his mom and dad who are 2 wonderful people. Prolly the parents that everyone wants
His brother and his wife who are also 2 great people. we hang out drink and have fun. Kind of wish i could get his wife to open up a little more to me but that comes in time. I realize i have done some things way in the past (leaving chase when i got pregers) and maybe that holds her back. What ever the reason im sure before we get super old we may be able to laugh and hang out on our own without the guys.
His sister and her life partner are also good people. we both enjoy horses and could always use that as a talking point if need be.
Sometimes i dont feel like i fit in. I realize im the youngest and the newest and im not as outgoing as them. But i feel myself opening up more the longer ive been around. I was always taught to respect your elders and to always clear the room when they come in. So naturally with me i take the backseat when it comes to everyone. I keep quiet and just listen and take everything in. My sister in law is an extremely smart person and i feel intimidated by her. Ive been getting to the point that i watch the news and read the times reporter and have to look words up when i know we are going to get together so i have some knowledge of things so i can try to have a conversation. but most of the time i still feel very stupid especially when it comes to someone that knows just about everything. I blame that on my childhood. No one ever around to answer questions and teachers who just shrug you off because someone else needs their help.

Friends we have very few friends but the friends we have we cherrish. First off there are Brett and Ashley. 2 very crazy people but very outgoing. sometimes they are strange but they fit together just fine. Lastly we have Jess and Paul and i cant forget cute little shaylynn. They are our next door neighbors who have lived there for about a year and at the end of the summer is when we first started talking. It all started with our blazer. Chase was trying to do something to it and Jess came over knowing what she was doing and elbows deep in the engine. while Paul shaylynn my kids and I sat on the porch getting to know eachother..from then on its been us going there or them coming here.. dinners and games and texting and laughing..Im sure this is the start to a beautiful relationship. Thanx for being in our lives Jess and Paul we really enjoy having you guys around. And shaylynn..what a cute little girl. I love the way she says our names. i love the smile she gets on her face when i come over or hearing stories about her saying our names or the dogs. I love that i can put a smile on her face when im not even around. All i have to do is put my dogs out and i have made her day. But please dont take pictures of me in my pjs sometimes i look horrible.. hahaha..Your new camera and you are not a good combo..but if you must take a pic you have to send it to me for me to approve of it...Well i think that is all for the night. Cherish everyone in your life you never know when the day will come that you will not have it anymore.